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I have been wanting to share this song on Good Friday for several years, but kept forgetting. It is the 5th track from my concept album "Audiocracy - Revolution's Son." If you'd like to read more about it, please see the Audiocracy Project Page and the liner notes on CDBaby: Audiocracy - Revolution's Son.

More importantly, I wanted to share a little of the story behind this song. It was built from an mp3 draft track I bounced, something hurriedly done to share with Audiocracy's lead singer, Twon, so he could learn the parts. After bouncing the track and sending it off via email, my hard drive experienced a fatal crash. I hadn't backed anything up. All my Logic files, including this one with about 16 different instrument tracks, was lost.

So, instead of having Twon re-sing my draft lyrics, I kept me singing the lead. (I was forever attached to the track, after all.) Twon added harmonies and overdubbed some lines, some in a "unison" an octave above. I came up with the idea of his voice being a second character in the song, sometimes like an Inquisitor, sometimes like a Voice of Conscience, sometimes a What If voice of Hope. I ended up liking the version better. (Then again, what else could I do? I wasn't going to start over from scratch.)

What was dead and lost, or so I thought, was resurrected a few days later.

Of course, this isn't the only reason I've wanted to share this song on a Good Friday. The song has many Holy Week conceptual ideas, especially how it works in the context of Revolution's Son's story line. The story of Jesus in Gethsemane has always struck me as the most honest passage in the New Testament. To pray for help, for a change of plans, for comfort, for a new fate... something many of us have done. To consider hypocrisy as a viable alternative. To put those nearest us to the test. So many interpretations can apply. But it was the way Jesus received no reply that is the most moving aspect of the story. And, in that silence, he somehow finds strength. Just this action brings its own rebirth.

Sometimes, the process of questioning everything we hold true is the way we envision ourselves as holy, no mater how each of us may define it. Not just facing our mortality. Not just facing our demons. Facing something deeper.

There was a time, there was a garden... no one fell asleep...
(I remember dreaming)
There was a time I was pardoned from all I keep inside.


It is never too late, even when we find ourselves at the feet of our own Pontius Pilate. Especially then.

Other tracks shared from Audiocracy:
Revolution's Son
Puzzle City
Speak Truth To Power
Gethsemane Again
When The Future Comes
Date To Sing
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V. Gethsemane Again (5:28)

Time
Time is running
Time is running out
for me

Give me the lines
I need my lines before I enter on the stage

See how the courtroom is filled
See all camera eyes, the guillotine teeth,
the skeleton hands that point me to the chair
(put me in my place)
the only empty chair

Time
Time is running on hope
Time is running out on what I believe and long for
Time is running out on everything that I thought
was true and would come to pass
as holy

"Put your hand on the book"
Holy
"Put your hand over your heart"
Holy
"Put your hand in mine"
Holy
"Place your hands over your eyes"
Holy
If you can't feel my wounds
Holy
How can you ask me to die?
Holy
Give me something to say to them
Holy
Something to say that is true...

One day I'm waking.
The next I'm falling asleep.
Small dreams for saving.
Big dreams for losing
in the wake of the mess that we make our lives.

Why can't it come now?
What is there waiting?
Who is it I hear?
Where are the places over and always and beyond time?

I take my hands from the book.
I take my hands from my eyes.
I find the wounds on my side.
No words will heal. I choose my life.

One day I'm waking.
The next I'm falling asleep.
Small dreams for saving.
Small dreams I will not give away to the Fathers or Sons of Time.

There was a time, there was a garden... no one fell asleep...
(I remember dreaming)
There was a time I was pardoned from all I keep inside.

Time is running out
on everything I thought was true and holy...

Time
Time is running with me


©2007 Tobin Mueller
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paul f. page said 1162 days ago (April 18th, 2014)
Aside from the theology...
...this is an intense re-presentation of the New Testament story that decidedly shows the anquish of the questions and the search for "a reason." The music itself is so complex that it is often difficult to understand the text (glad you printed it), but that complexity is maybe a further metaphor for the turmoil it represents. I think your musical conception here is astonishing on so many levels. How you imagine all of this is the mystery of your own special creativity...and it is a wonder to hear.
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TobinMueller said 1158 days ago (April 22nd, 2014)
Electric chair used to illustrate
When I first wrote this piece, I attached a jpg of an electric chair to it, with shadows of approaching people looming over it. But I couldn't find it for posting here.

I think my favorite part is at 2:00 into the piece, the "Holy" section, and the variation at 3:29. Plus, I had great fun playing the Trilogy bass. The bass is mixed too low, when I was playing it I had it truly cranked. That's why the best listening experience is in headphones.

I love layering stuff. And working under a conceptual framework. So glad you stopped by for a listen! Thanks.
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DWL said 1162 days ago (April 18th, 2014)
Channeling YES?
Has a real prog rock feel about it.

As always,brilliant musicianship and concept.

Cheers

Dick
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TobinMueller said 1158 days ago (April 22nd, 2014)
YES
YES is my all time favorite band. Their influence creeps into my piano solos, my jazz arrangements, everything. They are the main influence in all my Audiocracy stuff, for sure. They are one of the few bands that when I go back for a thousandth listen, I continue to learn things from them. YES, Sondheim, Debussy, Stranvinsky, Monk, Joni Mitchell are always pulling at me. I enjoy being haunted :-)

Thanks for your comments. Really glad you listened.
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Vic Holman said 1161 days ago (April 18th, 2014)
Gethsemane Again
I agree with Dick on channeling yes.
this is excellent. detail, composition & execution is superb!
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TobinMueller said 1158 days ago (April 22nd, 2014)
Detail
Thanks, Vic. I enjoyed placing all the little details in this, while trying to keep any particular moment from getting cluttered (as I often end up doing), especially since the overall organization is challenging and complex. Really glad you liked it.
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peacepiano said 1161 days ago (April 18th, 2014)
Powerful
Great tune. I am sure I already have the CD but am having trouble finding it tonight. I may just have to get it again, great stuff!
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TobinMueller said 1158 days ago (April 22nd, 2014)
Finding the CD
Thanks. If you need another copy of the CD, please send me a private message with your address. I'll send you one. The artwork in the booklet really adds to the experience. :-)
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rok41 said 1160 days ago (April 20th, 2014)
Gethsemane Again
Wow, this is rich! What a plethora of sounds and color. I agree with Paul, so complex and it is a lot to take in, but really interesting. I'm a "groove" guy, so this is a bit different than what i generally am drawn to, but this really kept me engaged. Some subtle early Peter Gabriel-esque feelings creeping in - dig it!
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TobinMueller said 1158 days ago (April 22nd, 2014)
Peter Gabriel
Thanks.

Peter Gabriel is one of those performers who has presented certain phrases in his music with such force they've stayed with me forever. He's voice is indelibly etched into my brain, seared. Very cool that some of that rubbed off here!
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Doug Somers said 1157 days ago (April 22nd, 2014)
Gethsemane
Like all good prog this is a story that takes place in stages each with its own setting and ambiance. You've really captured a series of sonic vignettes thematically and musically related but each distinct and fresh. The effect is very cool - I was thinking Gentle Giant before seeing comments about Yes (I hear that too). I like how you bring it back to 7 for the close to wrap it up.

The other dimension - and there are many in this nuanced and complex work - is the spiritual or existential one. I particularly like how you've taken the theme of questioning from the Garden passage, that reflects a basis of humanity writ large, and extended it to Questioning in a more complete and thorough sense, both with words and I imagine without any words or concrete thoughts. "Not just facing our mortality. Not just facing our demons. Facing something deeper." - that really struck a chord with me and is something in some of my more abstract work I try to bring out. How deep does it go? It depends on how thoroughly and long you keep questioning I suppose. Is there a bottom of complete understanding?

I'm so glad you posted this work Tobin and thanks to your collaborators too. Dloaded with appreciation!
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TobinMueller said 1157 days ago (April 23rd, 2014)
How deep?
What fabulous comments! I write music for people like you! (Love your MacJams City portrait, by the way.)

And, yes, I love Gentle Giant, as well. I wish they would have put out as many albums as Yes, and lasted as long.

I believe there is no bottom to mining the depths of understanding. As an amateur physicist, that seems a given. My middle son is a RNA researcher, I suspect he'd agree. I also think, as humans, Understanding has a large Emotional component... we understand when we Feel like we understand, whether or not that feeling is correct. Curiosity is also a feeling, or at least represents itself as an emotion in my body. A desire for proof, an acknowledgment of insufficiency, a cloudiness tinged with hope of finding something beyond the fog if you only keep searching. I love the interplay of Understanding and Curiosity. They create wonderful euphoria, one as a temporary oasis of celebration, one as a celebration of movement. Like the act of writing and performing music, the interplay: the joy of creation and the drive to perfect; the sense of incompleteness and the satisfaction of expression. I know you know what I mean.

Cheers :-)
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Doug Somers said 1157 days ago (April 23rd, 2014)
Right on
and very well said.
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Franciscus_Henri said 1157 days ago (April 22nd, 2014)
Very exciting
sound and production
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TobinMueller said 1152 days ago (April 28th, 2014)
Very...
Thanks!
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FEEL said 1157 days ago (April 23rd, 2014)
Amazing keys
And I'm digging your signature vocals. It's nice to hear some progressive music on macjams. We need more! Thanks for sharing.
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TobinMueller said 1152 days ago (April 28th, 2014)
"signature vocals"
That made me smile. I know my singing days are behind me, but like that they were "signature" as opposed to some other less appealing adjective! Ha! Thanks for the good comments.

Prog rock takes longer to write than most music, for me. Plus, its kind of a group activity. I have considered doing some progressive rock piano solos in my next project in which I take on JS Bach and transmogrify him, but will leave the vocals for another day. :-)
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J.A.Stewart said 1157 days ago (April 23rd, 2014)
Pass This Cup
Very theatrical and powerful. Such a rich and novel soundscape, worthy of a 21st Century Godspel.

The keyboard work is exciting and the chorale work is stunning in this frenetic composition.

To me, the lesson of Gethsemane is that because of our corporeal existence, being human can be an agonizing challenge — an experience communicated in all its anguish to God, through Jesus. But you have placed this experience in a most interesting and unusual setting. Brilliant! ;)

--- Joe
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TobinMueller said 1152 days ago (April 28th, 2014)
theatrical and powerful
Thanks, Joe. I like taking well know stories and altering their context. I did the same with Frankenstein and Robin Hood, and had a half done Merlyn musical drama going before I retorted from playwriting. I love songs that highlight cool keyboard sounds. The lush vocals chords made a good contrast with the biting keys. Glad you liked it!
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PeterB7858 said 1156 days ago (April 23rd, 2014)
Gethsemane Again
Epic music making, Tobin. In parts I was thinking that I must have missed the secret album that CSN had done with Yes :-) Great harmonies and keyboard work. This is a spectacular musical odyssey. Bravo. Thanks, Peter.
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TobinMueller said 1152 days ago (April 28th, 2014)
Crosby, Stills, Nash, Anderson, Wakeman, Bruford and Howe...
Now that would be a group to remember.

Thanks for riding on the epic bandwagon. I love odysseys. Especially musical ones. Thanks for coming along. Much appreciated.
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Les_Kloo said 1156 days ago (April 23rd, 2014)
Guillotine teeth
Rich, rich, rich. Very enjoyable listen. I noticed the Yes and GG comparisons. I suppose it's hard to get away from comparisons, since Yes owns classic prog to a large extent. I actually heard more Todd+Utopia than the others that were mentioned, but whatever. Within that framework, there is plenty of room for originality, and this is original, well thought out, and skillfully delivered. Well done.
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TobinMueller said 1152 days ago (April 28th, 2014)
Guillotine teeth...
Thanks for picking out that lyric, it's one of my favorites. Thanks for seeing the originality. I used some chord progressions and changes I'd never heard before. Part of my restless musical spirit. thought they made transitions that spoke to the struggle, the difficulty moving from moment to moment in this tragic tale. Your comments are well appreciated.
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Sigmund said 1155 days ago (April 24th, 2014)
Gethsemane Again
This is excellent - complex and diverse. I'm hearing YES and Jesus Christ Superstar all at once. I had to listen a couple of times to really appreciate this sophisticated work, and appreciate it I did - and enjoyed - thanks!
Sig
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TobinMueller said 1152 days ago (April 28th, 2014)
sophisticated work
Thanks for taking the time to listen multiple times. I love that! I must listen to a song 100 times while mixing, and that doesn't count the 500 times while arranging and recording it all. That's one of the reasons I write things to keep myself from getting bored.

I was 14 when JCS came out. In my late 30s, I was the music contractor and organist for the stage show. The music is in my DNA, I think. I comes out a few times during the course of Revolution's Son. Thanks for mentioning it.
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mikkinylund said 1154 days ago (April 25th, 2014)
Wow...
It's been some times - I am still in NY if you want to catch up over a beer... This is so 70's fusion, almost at the edge of Broadway. I am still in love with your voice, it's incredible. Not your voice alone, I can hear that. A bit of YES, but also unique... After a few listening, this is awesome!!!
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TobinMueller said 1151 days ago (April 29th, 2014)
Mikki!
Great to hear from you. I texted your old mobile phone number about that beer, but I'm not sure if its still your phone. Send your latest info via Notes if you can. Would love to catch up in person.

I'm also on Facebook via a musician page Suzanne set up for announcements and such:
https://www.facebook.com/tmueller.music
or, "friend" Suzanne if thats easier: https://www.facebook.com/suzanne.deltufo

Cheers!
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JazzIsTvRicky said 1154 days ago (April 26th, 2014)
Your productions are always amazing!
I feel as though the characters are appearing and the show is on! Visually and imaginative mind at work...Wonderful!!! A Master Musician and Composer you are Tobin...Broadway Bound

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TobinMueller said 1151 days ago (April 29th, 2014)
Visual and imaginative mind
Thanks, Jazz. Love your hat, by the way!
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